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What the hey, I'm writing again :)

I really do miss writing - I used to write a LOT about my life when I was studying in Dublin at one point. And I had a lot of friends who actually read them and told me they enjoyed it, even inspired some of them to start their own blog. And now I'm inspired by their blogs to restart again. Oh life and its cyclical-ness. Hence this.

Hello! And welcome back me! So...what have I been up to eh? Unlike my previous blog, I honestly do not expect anyone to be reading this. Only that one special someone knows of this blog and I'm hoping that he's already forgotten about it by now just cause I haven't updated in ages.

Anyway, life has been crazy, especially this last week. The crazy events that took place in the city actually taught me that one doesn't have to be directly involved in the event in order to be affected by it. PTSD, inflicted onto yours truly. Plus it didn't help that I was PMS-ing and stressed about other parts of my life too. ie. graduation, internship, moving, housemate situation, money, job, etc
Fun times indeed.

But for the moment. I just finished watching Smash. And one of the projects I'm stressed about is my musical theater collaboration for which I'm writing the music for. I'm supposed to be all the more inspired but for some reason or other, I'm not budging. I'm not even practicing my piano. Or my vocals. Or my yoga. Or anything, for that matter. In fact I think I'm so stressed out I'm at that point where I don't think I know where to begin or even want to for fear of not being able to complete it? Or that overconfidence of getting it done last minute is getting to me. I hate it when that happens. Rant moment. Hence my attempt at writing my thoughts here in order to hopefully move forward from this point of my life.

Am I succeeding? (And now we are venturing into that meta moment) All I can do is hope. I will probably continue to dance on my bed after this. Perhaps even tidy up some parts of my room. Or better yet, schedule the next 2 weeks I have left of Berklee. Eeckkkk!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

There we go. A virtual Garden State moment where I shout into the abyss to let go of everything off my shoulders. A huge sigh. And a step forward. You can do this! Yea!

Later gator ;)